I stand by the notion that life rules.

Well I don't seem to have much writing to make public lately. When life rules there just isn't that much need to talk anymore. I suppose I could share some thoughts on what I'm going to do for my own education after this school year is over.

Uh yeah, so I'm going to follow The Artist's Way program first and foremost. Creativity and self-expression and being "unblocked" are things that have fast become more important to me than impeccable fitness routines in the last year or so. I will also follow my own specific training routine -not that fitness is unimportant- and I will achieve all of my goals.... I just don't find that topic to be as driving as much anymore, I'm just happy to have the lifestyle and not be so obsessed at the moment that I injure myself or over train. Phases happen and they are good but some things never change such as the drive to be an animal.

I'll also read some good books! I've been waiting so long to be done with school and read books again. God I can't wait for that!!! I've got to keep becoming a better trainer, teacher, writer, musician, song-writer, and communicator. You know, it's a funny anecdote the kind of music I love:



And the way it's so brutal and angry and what not and yet I am such a chill person who is focused on helping people. It's all of that power and vitality - it needs a severe outlet and solace in shredding I guess. Hahaha my strangeness will continue to be an amusing source of internal questioning for years to come.

I must take on at least one new hobby in the new year. It's looking like dance - and not just my usual kind alone in my room but with a partner of course and something with etiquette. Oh yeah and I'm going to definitely do some specific reading on my weak points such as business and what have you - although that could be an endless task finding all of those weak points but you gotta start somewhere! When you want to make something more of yourself, that is.

Timothy out.

"Tim facts" on interesting things.

Interesting things happen regardless of whether you are aware of them. Since the early 1900's or probably before there hasn't been a second where a combustion engine has not been running. Now, that's just me being somewhat sardonic but there is a point... I guarantee you that somewhere out there is something interesting going on and you are also wasting away at home like me in this moment.

Having things be interesting to you is a choice. Believe it or not I know people who think life is boring.

More interesting things happen to you when you are open to them such as when you pull over your car and stand by the side of the road to smell the air.

Interesting things happen when you are not muddled by routine behavior. I sat on a bluff overlooking the pacific to get rid of a bad mood today. The result was me later making a series of choices that introduced me to a cool person who might become a friend and perhaps a regular client.

Interesting interactions happen with the people you least expect. I met someone with a criminal record who I'd rather hang out with in the place of most workaday types. Being quick with the old adage "get a job" doesn't mean you know anything about life, it just means you're a tart asshole.

How to pigeon hole yourself in 5 easy steps.

If your name is Tim Spencer here is a great way to examine your lack of originality:

Step one: www.wikipedia.com

Step two: type "viking" into the search function and click on the first result. Your original thought was to research ancient burial sites discovered around the world, however....

Step three: click on the phrase "noble savages" out of intrigue.

Step four: read through the passage and then click on the phrase Neo-Tribalism.

Step five: read through the passage, especially the section on the Radical tendency of neo-tribalism.

Congratulations, you subscribe to a radical ideology that someone already put to words. Now would be a good time to wonder whether this makes you happy or sad. Please proceed.

Celeste.

The view from my front porch; it's good. It's the envy of any. The stars are ridiculously beautiful tonight. I sometimes like to just stand outside after getting home and do nothing. It's great. The stars have more energy than me. They will accomplish more. No getting ahead of them in life. I am lucky, for I will not need to burn as hot as they to be fully realized, fully spent.

I am lucky. So very lucky.

It's perfect, even though I haven't been feeling so good lately and not been up to training too hard I am always thankful for my ongoing pursuit of happiness. To be strong? Bah. Strong is weak. To be able to give like selfless sources of starlight, now that is a good goal that's worth tracking. Indeed I see how that goal feeds itself and it is causing an unraveling of self-discovery and a wellspring of joy within my life. Strength of soul, I suppose. The best part is the craziness. The best part is the way I would look 5 years into the future at the age of 18 and wonder what the hell I've been doing to myself to become so bizarre to the dignified. It was only today that I realized my church is not just nature but my car ride and my music and my thoughts and my upsets. My religion is honking at someone because they crossed the street when they shouldn't have and then teaching myself something from the incident that invariably involves my own shortsightedness. Young self: I have been reading, dispelling, confirming, thinking, opening, observing. Every day is and will continue to be "light day" and "heavy day" both. Soft swaying with the breeze and difficult ascents up waterfalls.

Yours in starry-eyed over-analysis of philosophy and life's sweet nothings,

Timothy

Power and metal.

My dear Sonata Arctica,

I am sad in my belly at how much your music has changed from your power metal days. Your new single tricked me! It was fast and good and I could live with it being a bit different. Obviously as artists you get bored with the same old... But I just don't know if I can follow you in this new direction. The band is feeling more like Tony's solo career - Tony, just start a separate band for that project, man! Ah whatever... I will just keep what I like. You are the artist(s) and I am the listener.

Perhaps I'm young and entranced with speed. I don't think my rampaging hormones and heart can handle so many drum breaks and the lack of soloing that made Sonata. I'm just not hearing your style of creating memorable melodies in "The Days of Grays"... :(

It's all good though, I've got new songs like this to listen to:



:)

The most amazing thing I've heard in a long time.

Joseph Sacks, my priceless and good friend had this to say to me in an e-mail regarding his adventures abroad, please read the following:

"When I make eye contact with them as I'm walking past, basically they seem to think, "Who is this guy...who is so different, so polite, so genuine...who smiles at me and kindly says hello...who is he?" Slowly and slowly, more and more are getting to know who I am. But I feel that I am ultimately destined to be misunderstood and looked upon with discomfort by them, though I have no problem with it whatsoever. This age group is so immature in many ways."

Here was part of my response to him: Dear Joe, every age group is immature. We could ALL learn something from your wisdom. Joe, you are my number one role model foremost before any person with "success" or money under their belt. I don't care how much money someone has or how impressive they are - a person would be sadly lacking in any sort of wealth (in my opinion) if they couldn't take the time to hear your plight and personal conquest over adversity as a human being. It's sadly not hard for me to imagine being 19 again and feeling the same way as you. I still feel the same way. Kind hearts such as yours are few and far between but this lifetime is the one for creating a positive upswing in human connectedness and happiness. There is so much room for our race to grow - the experiences you have are the seeds that will change this world, always, if you nurture them with seemingly inhuman determination. Always remember that you were weaker in the past - no matter what - and that you will always be your strongest and most capable in the present because you still have any power at all. Titles and records, for example, are things of the past. The past changes nothing but teaches everything. Now will always be the time when you can breathe life into your dreams for inspiring humanity and healing others.

He may not be aware of it, but Joe's words reflect on us all and the maturity of every age group. Quality of character will always be a journey and not a destination. Don't ever cease training to be a better person or history will repeat with all of its sickening events eternally. This is fact, just watch the news and you will see how actively groups of people seek to hold our hand and guide us backwards to worse times and worse beliefs - especially the talking heads on the news with their harping on inadequacies. Elementary, high schools, and colleges should be founded on what Joe is going through - the plights of a genuine and spiritually wealthy person who cares deeply - not math or science.

I love you Joe!

Club-bells

I got to use my first club-bell today courtesy of a friend who I will hopefully be doing a training exchange with. I think they might turn into another new great thing - why are simple things always the best? CB, meet KB. You may clank the bride.

Thankfully I resisted the urge to do anything crazy and I kept my kettlebell demo (for him) pretty reigned in. It should rain tomorrow so I won't have to do my dumb boot camp class at city college so that means more possible R&R. Boot-crap asside, my real training can begin tomorrow (if I feel 100%) or Wednesday with some heavy deadlifts and a nice, brutal workout! >:D